Writing – My Arch Nemesis
Okay, Okay that’s a bit dramatic. Clearly I love to write otherwise I wouldn’t be keeping a blog. It’s actually my passion, to write about literally anything. I currently have 5 novels, 1 novella, and 6 kids books started on my computer. But there in lies the problem. They’re all started, but nothing has progressed further than that. But I’m getting ahead of myself here. How did I get started writing? And how am I going to help myself to further this love affair? Well let me tell you!
So I don’t believe I’ve mentioned my college life yet but I went to school for Apparel Design, Merchandising and Production (at least that’s what my diploma says.) I tend to have a stubborn streak that runs through me, so when I heard that most students change their major, I decided that I wasn’t going to be in that statistic. And OH BOY do I regret that. I think that one of the biggest lessons I learned from my time at college was that it’s okay to change your mind. But anyway I stuck with my major. It wasn’t until my senior year; I was sitting on the bus wondering what the heck I was going to do next. I had done an internship the previous summer and I was sure that I would end up getting a job with her after graduation (I did.) But was this really the direction I wanted to take? Did I really belong/ want to be in the fashion world?
Now don’t get me wrong, I love clothes. I currently am working a retail management position and my closet has gotten way out of hand. That’s why here’s a shameless plug of my Poshmark account. (poshmark link) But sitting on that bus I tried to reflect on moments on when I had truly been happy in my life, what brought me the greatest joy? In that moment I realized reading was my greatest joy. I know that sounds backwards too, shouldn’t it be writing? But to be honest I hadn’t done a ton of writing besides papers for school. But I was always asking my friends random hypotheticals and creating stories of people in bars that we were in. I absolutely loved my English classes and always excelled in them. So why wasn’t that on my radar? Honestly I don’t know. It actually never even hit me that it should be.
So how am I able to call myself a writer, even though I am struggling to write? I think therein lay the answer. Writing isn’t easy for anyone. Even our most beloved authors struggle to get the story out onto the page. We can see it so clearly but then things like logistics and actual facts can muddle things up. I love doing research for a book but if you’re not careful you can get sucked into that black hole. There is always more to be researched. It is knowing when to stop researching and to carry on with the story that you know. Another reason that this is a struggle for me is because how personally I can take responses to my writing. I know that I need to develop a thicker skin, trust me its on my list, but its more than that. I was finally able to put into words why writing is so intimate to me. Its like a piece of my soul is out there and even when I have my boyfriend review a blog post I get these nervous butterflies in my stomach.
I know I’m probably not special with these nervous, anxious butterflies, but I am going to actively try to overcome them. So what’s the plan? #1 Blog. That seems simple enough, cause here I am! But consistently sitting down to write is a big roadblock for some people, me included. Putting it on your daily schedule and writing anything that comes to mind, from a blog post to a short story. I’ve also started to track how many words a day I have written. Now I know this may not be for everyone, and not every word is meaningful or going to be saved but I really think this is a good way to track my progress. #2 Ignore the hate. I know most of this is self-hate but I need to ignore the negative feedback that isn’t helpful. I had a friend one-time make fun of a story of mine and it really stuck in my head. Thankfully, for a multitude of reasons that person isn’t a friend anymore, but I think that even if you don’t love something of a friends you should still be supportive. #3 Outlining. Outlining has become a savior for me. I use it for every single blog post and have started using it on a short story. I’m going to start a novel here (perhaps for NaNoWriMo? ) and plan on using my same outlining technique.
You may be wondering besides blogs, what do I love to write? My ideal genre would be thriller/horror/suspense. I love reading something that’s going to leave me on the edge of my seat. I think that I’ve had some pretty wacky dreams that I’ve started morphing into stories that would really shock some people. My inspiration would have to be similar to Stephen King, Chuck Palahinuk and even Chelsea Cain. I’ve you’ve never heard of the last, check out her Archie Sheridan series. It’s entertaining and packs a punch.
Now that you know a little bit more of my writing history/plan moving forward I want to know what is your passion? Are you struggling to move forward with it? Do you need help morphing out a plan? One of my favorite sayings is “A goal without a plan is just a wish.” I want to get better at my craft and I’m sure you guys will see more of this journey.